My sensitivity is my superpower
All my life I have felt all of my emotions with extreme intensity. Not only things happening within my own life but also around the world.
I cry regularly. I cry when I am feeling joyful, grateful, in love, in pain, shocked, helpless, anxious, angry, sad and frustrated to name a few. Crying is not a sign of weakness. Crying is a subjective experience that involves a physiological response and behavioral or expressive response.
I have been told in various situations throughout my life to “stop being so sensitive” or “stop crying”, “I don’t like it when you cry” and even to the extent of being ghosted by someone I cared for. What these people fail to understand is that they’re telling you how to feel based off their inability to feel empathy in the same way you do. Empathy is part of my personality but it does not come naturally to all of us. Some people lack the ability to place themselves in someone else’s position both on an emotional and intellectual level.
As I’ve gotten older I’ve learnt that my sensitivity is not a weakness and I should not try to conceal it. In situations like this where someone has tried to tell me otherwise I remind myself that there is nothing wrong with me and this person is having trouble connecting with me emotionally and at a deeper level. Whilst feeling a deep sense of emotion can be incredibly painful at times, I love myself enough to know that my strong self awareness is a strength.
I have the ability to find beauty in the smallest things and find wonder in times of both sadness and joy. My sensitivity is my intuition and awareness for others who are in pain. My sensitivity is my deep desire to care for and spread love to others. My sensitivity is my creativity and my connection to self expression. Take that away and you’re taking away the very essence of who I am. My sensitivity is my superpower.